Thursday, February 4, 2010
Courtney's been having a really difficult week. We had a fun weekend, going on a date together one night, then out with friends the next. She did great during those nights, and was feeling up to going to church on Sunday. About 30 minutes into it, she crashed. Since then, she's been having really difficult time. She says she feels like a stranger in her own body. Everything feels foreign, alien. She also has what seems like extreme ADD. She can't get through a sentence without loosing her thought. She tried the other night to see how high she could count. With several tries, she couldn't get past 4. She's extremely frustrated, which seems to be contributing to her troubles. We're going to have an appointment with her neurologist soon, and we hope she might have some treatment ideas. In the meantime, I suspect this has been brought on largely by fear of what the next MRI will show and a feeling of "being on stage" whenever we're with people or in a public place. I'll let you know how this weekend goes. Sorry I haven't been keeping up with this, Time has been extremely tight. I'll try harder to find a few minutes more frequently. Thanks for caring!
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I know is hard to be positive,but try,don't worry how high you can count,the great thing is that you have memories of you childrens,and you can recognize people, things, places,you can see the sun shine in the morning,listening the rain coming down(cats and dogs)listening you baby crying and making funny noises,your kids going bananas on what movie we are going to watch,the smell of burn microwave popcorn,all these thing that make our day,i know you feel crappy and mad,you are here !!!and you can make it!!,be strong and smell the flowers ,even when you don't feel like it,take a look on what is all around you and you feel better,look at me, who knows how many spelling mistakes i make in this paragraph ..who care about number,you are a great mother and wife.....I hope you have a better week
PS:Havenly father is there next to you never forget that..
Don't let it get you down, Courtney! You just had a major brain surgery and have been dealing with a life-changing crisis. The fact that you've been able to get out and do stuff is awesome. Don't let frustrating setbacks make you lose sight of all that you have accomplished. (Hmmm, maybe I should take my own advice and not be ticked that after getting down 7 pounds now I'm only down 4.) =] Love you!! Hugs!!
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We are living this with you Courtney--you have friends on every side!
Courtney - I agree with Alessandra...you've just been through some major events and your body is going to need time to recover. I can only imagine how frustrating it must be and none of us will truly know how you are feeling. But please remember that you are loved deeply and Heavenly Father is holding you tight in his embrace as you go through this ordeal.
Jason - Thank you for the updates. I think we all forgive you for not having tons of time right now. ;) Hang in there you guys! We love you.
sending love!
Courtney, I love you so much! I know that's strange to say after not seeing you for years except chatting briefly at the LDS Performers Concert. But I have been following your blog ever since Sandefur sent us an email in the fall. I am praying for you, and I hope for the best for you and your family. Hang in there, girl! Heavenly Father still can work miracles. I will always remember and be grateful for you singing at our wedding, "The Way You Look Tonight." Love that memory of you singing just for the two of us.
Love always, Erin
So I have some real similarities with this story. I am a relation, you and I are family members but please don't (for the sake of annonymity) show my website to other family members. You and I however share very similar experiences. I too have struggled with problems with brain functioning. I think by reading you may find hope. facingmentalillness.blogpot.com is my page. You actually inspired one of my posts.
PS: I hope you can trust there is a healing process even for the brain. Take a look at my posts, and don't lose hope.
Sigh. What a tough road you guys are traveling. For what it's worth, they should indeed hook you up (at some point of dust settling) with a neuropsychologist who can do some testing and give suggestions for rehabilitation. Fears, anxieties, worrying about "being on stage" when out and about can indeed flood the brain. My heart is with you! (Did you ever sing with Howie Cleavinger, Courtney? He's a neuropsychologist.....).
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